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I tried to kill myself. Not thought of it. Didn't even "see it play out." Some people are so vivid in their dreams. Not me. I never dreamed much. And yes, there was a good deal of thought, but I didn't let it idle there. I acted. I wouldn't let myself grow stagnant in thought. Thought must forge forward. Thought must become action. Generally a good way to live, not super great for death. I jumped off a bridge. And it's been months. I spent them thinking, mostly. Why I did it, where I've been and how I got there. A good deal spent on how and why I'll never go there again. And for those of you who selflessly worry for others, no, I won't

(Before I begin, I actually did ask them how much they were willing to let me say in this.) So, I've kind of been keeping up with my dA messages. And recently one of my friends on here sent me something about how her boyfriend of quite a bit had been cheating on her and all. She'd been kind of depressed of late because of it, and we were talking about all the things she wants and can't have, and how in all her life she could never find it. Someone who treats women well; a place where sex is not primary or secondary- rather it stands beside all the other bits of a relationship. At the same time, our mutual friend had been telling me for a go

1. This survey gets a little personal; can you handle it? Sure. 2. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be? Schneider. 3. Were you happy when you woke up today? Not particularly? I was bored. 4. When were you on the phone last? And with who? Like, 3 hours ago with telemarketers. Fucking telemarketers. 5. What are you excited for? I'm going to Mayhem in 4 days. Almost 3 days now though. 7. Honestly, who was the last person to tell you they love you? I think Jae? But that was more like, "You're such a dork and this is why we're friends." 8. What's the last thing you put in your mouth? Chick-Fil-A's n